Had a Bad Day!?

 Hey There!

So I started to have a bad day in the middle of the day. I work in a tiny apartment type company and my senior was telling me about how easy it is on upwork and how anyone can do it and all the help can be found on google and youtube and he has done it and he was going on and on and on.....meanwhile I was starting to get crushed at every passing moment into finer and finer grains of dust.

BECAUSE! I had so much trouble and problem. So much annoyance, so much involvement of feelings, so much desire to succeed.... But everytime there was always a barrier I could never break through. I just could never. "All the help is available on the internet" He says! Ha! I tried so hard but I was alone, there never was any help, everyone just said the same thing over and over again. And it never worked. Never!

There was no one to help me, to guide me; I had no idea where I should go to, who I should ask, I was all alone; helpless; bearing the crushing burden of defeat, feeling my teeth go sour from the defeat; the humiliation I felt. And to him it was just nothing but help on the internet to do the trick. 🤦‍♂️

Okay....too hot, too hot. Lets Calm down

Well, I felt very horrible, I felt like it was my fault that I suffered for 6 years for not not having work to do, for not earning money, for feeling like the world is against me, for feeling like things just wont work for me, for feeling like I am the discarded one. Im the wretched. I'm the destitute.

Sigh....well anyways. I'm faced with this platform again. I am again thrown into the battlefield with this platform as my opponent. I gotta fight. BUt this time there is some help. The company i started work in works on upwork so they are training me for it. Although the training is not so good but nonetheless it is something. I find it kinda difficult to keep up with the platform because of how much info I am bombarded with at any given time.

I thought it would be simple but it is quiet complex while being simple as it is. Its a surprise!

I recovered from that crushed feeling within an hour or 2 and then the rest of the day went by pretty much fine. ALthough at the end of the shift the supervisor guy started to pressurize me again to do work on twitch n twitter. I HATE THAT WORK!!!! But I will let that story be known some other time.

For now I will say goodbuy. Take care of yourselves. Im trying to do it too. My friend had to send me a 8 min audio msg to revive me from my bad mood. I hope you have such people around you.

Stay wonderful.

Assalamualikum!